Analogi dan Definisi Patah Hati

Assalamualaikum,

amboi sangat tajuk tu kan? haha, sekali sekala ai nak berpuitis-puitis ni jangan lah caras ai XD I've been away for a while. Dah seminggu myra start praktikal, been so busy sebab 12 hours shift. #Sadlife kan? tau dah. haha

Anyway, myra nak tanya korang lah kan..Bila kali terakhir korang rasa pedih, sakit hati, sedih, kecewa dan patah hati? Bila kali terakhir korang menangis sepuas-puasnya ibarat tiada hari esok?

Ibaratnya tu lah myra sekarang ni.

perasaan yang sama bila myra bangun pagi, and myra tatap Princess, si love bird kesayangan myra dah kejung kaku dalam sangkar dia.

itu mungkin sedih

 sakit yang sama..

bila putus cinta?

itu mungkin pedih.

tak kisah lah macam mana pun definisi patah hati kalian.

myra punya definisi patah hati myra sendiri.

semua orang akan alami fasa ni, 

melihat orang yang paling kita sayang.. bersama dengan orang lain.

tapi bukan dengan kita

SAKIT

Well.. that happened to me. Siapa dia, biarlah empunya badan yang mengerti sendiri. 

His existence brought along so massive impact on me.

impak yang sangat besar. entah. mungkin dy tak perasan, atau tak pernah perasan. My teens stage of life was potrayed with him. My success derived by him, and so did my fall.

myra sendiri tak sedar betapa besar pengaruh dia dalam hidup myra. even after the broke up, I was still be able in relationship dgn orang lain.

tapi, too little too late then I realized, after each broke up everything leads to him. It turns out he's the one I wanted. I can't help feeling happy and bubbly each time we chat, talk or tweets, each time I caught on his pictures. and I've become very enthusiastic when it comes to share about him with my friends. 

and then my heart says

"I want him"

He's always being so kind, supportive after years we've been through even after the broke up

He knows me better than anyone else, my story, how to cheer me up, how to make me become determine, strong willing and energetic again.

he just knows me so well.

seriously, I fell for him because he is the most decent guy I ever met in my life after all the mistakes I've been thru. mungkin sebab tu jugak, dia cuma pandang myra sebagai kawan. I screwed up, once I live my life to the fullest. I don't deserve him. dia terlalu baik untuk myra.

myra tak layak untuk orang sebaik dia, sebijak dia. 

You are out of my league

ya, myra tau myra tak layak, but my heart never gives up hoping even I realized it is an unrequited love.

and what I fear the most, comes true.

the pain struck like I wanna scream 

"Why am I reading this???"

Terasa mcm apa yang myra alami 4 tahun lepas tu berlaku semula.

apa yang jadi 4 tahun lepas? that was the most horrible things happened I still vividly remember until now. no, dia tak pernah tahu apa yang jadi dulu, myra yang tanggung sorang2, sakit dan pedihnya myra tak pernah cerita pada dia. cuma orang sekeliling myra je yang tau apa jadi.

the critical point that changed my whole life.

myra tak salahkan dia. salahkan diri sendiri.

myra sedih, but who am I to question? dia pun mungkin tak pernah terfikir nk go beyond friends again.

I'm just wanna say sorry, I went overboard about this feelings thingy.

I know I'm a fuckin retard yang perasan lebih so I'll just better walk away.

lets pretend we never meet, never know each other.

I wanna move on and forget this stupid 7 years memories so called puppy love.

sorry sebab buat mcm ni, I'll need to rebuild the walls around my heart, which forbids you to enter. not sure if one day I'll open it back or not.

haha, myra tau he won't bother. Its okay, this is just the method for me to heal myself. 

self-healing.

myra iron lady kan? ;)